Yes, I am a loner and I am not afraid to admit it.

Yes, I am a loner and I am not afraid to admit it. Just being a loner it does not mean that I am an introvert. I just know when to speak and what to speak and that’s called wisdom. To be sharing here in my blog, I wasn’t like this before but as the saying often goes “With time, experience, circumstances and situation an individual changes”. It so happened with me also in the same way. All of us have our share of ups and downs so it’s worthless to mention here that such thing, which thing, such experience etc happened with me by which I became what I am today. People often call me serious, rude and all such terms. Initially it did bother me but with passage of time and with trying to console & train the mind that these are just temporary and what ultimately matters is what we are to ourselves I was able to gear up. Like me, there are lots of people out there in the world and who prefers their own company. Being a loner, we have our own side of advantage but alas! Maximum people always pinpoints at the disadvantage of it. I make my own sets of plans on what I tend to do throughout the day and I try to stick to it as much as possible but sometimes there being certain other factors by which I have to divert myself from my plans. When people tell me that I don’t talk and I just keep on staring it necessarily doesn’t mean I am blank. I have many things running in my mind in context to what the speaker is saying. And I don’t like to blabber just for the sake of speaking. Knowledge is knowing what to speak but knowing when to speak is also important and that’s called wisdom.

I often looked upon to friends when family wasn’t there at times. And when friends were not there for me in times of need who was I to look to. Reaching this phase of my life, I try to filter out people who affect my life in a negative way. I might have been childish back then to consider everyone my friends when actually most of them would be nice to me just to get their work done. I am not angry with them coming at this stage because it is after encountering them in my life that I know things in reality doesn’t happen like a fairy tale. As I mentioned earlier, ups and downs being a part of life and somehow or the other we have to face it and that brings out the capability in you.

But have you also felt sometimes though having friends you like to be in your own company?  You like a moment for yourself, you like to be with the inner you, and you’d like to hear your mind speaking, close your eyes and just be with you. This is not some taboo to feel this way. I know most of us do feel it but situations, circumstances stop us from expressing it out. I know having friends, partners, company is equally important because we need to listen to their words which they speak for us, but then don’t let it be the ultimate decision you will be taking. It’s always good to listen to views and advises given by people who consider you dear to them but do not let their words be your decision. When you have problem, to whom will you go about telling your problems? I think there will be just a handful of friends who might try to help you out but most of them will just listen and just give you consoling words. So then! It’s you ultimately who will have to take decision in handling the matters.

We come alone in mother’s womb, not wearing fancy clothes and we go alone when we die with nothing. We face our Karma – the deed which we have done or carried out while we were alive. I read an article today which mentions about science finding that there is life after death. No offense here, but well I feel funny because these things have already been talked about in many religions telling mankind to do good deeds while alive because there exists life after death and we all have to face the consequences of those deeds after life and also in our next lives. But, I hardly see people taking much notice and consideration to it. We are so much pre-occupied with the modern technology, the survival of the fittest that we fail to consider these words. And when today, science does mention about its finding of life after death, I see people sharing the article in the social website, commenting and all. So, this actually shows somewhere that they did have time but there was this gap where no medium could be established and so people were more inclined towards the science story rather than the religious story when actually both the topics were same.

The feeling of being left out, the feeling of being dominated were some of the factors which made me feel low for a while. Meditation helps a lot to kill these feelings. What I felt when alone was that I could give time to myself, I could be by myself and I could pamper myself. There are certain times of the day, certain times of the week, and certain times of the year and certain times in your life when you need a friend to talk to; to pour out what’s been going in your mind and for some advises to come back. And that’s definitely a thumbs up from me. I too might do the same thing and also I will give time to myself to listen to my inner voice and to be with myself. I love to write because of the fact that I am able to express out what’s been running in my mind. I consider my laptop as my sole friend ^__^ who is there for ready to take in my words anytime and anywhere. The only difference being it doesn’t give back its views though…ha-ha!  But so long you realize the fact that things are temporary in this world, we all have our own roles to play, God being the Director, We come for shopping to this world and when our baskets are full we have to go back. Everything, if we are able to look at in a positive way, I think that brings out the purpose of life. And that’s why I have mentioned in my social pages that “The meaning of life is to find your gift and the purpose of life is to give it away”.